God has been telling me, “I see you,” this week.
I have wanted to please others since I was little. These misplaced values have been under construction for years.
Pleasers are more comfortable in a parenting role with little kids because we’re superheroes. As kids grow older and they form their own opinions, they start getting critical. It’s a normal separation, but it’s painful for mom, no matter the circumstances. This week life got especially hard because, unfortunately, my children now believe things that are not true, and the ensuing misunderstanding is extremely painful.
I can’t divulge my reasons for decisions I have made because I need to protect them from things they can’t understand. I’m walking a tight-rope of speaking the truth, but not too much.
Self-defense is always my first reaction when I am accused. I want to set the record straight, and it’s painful to see my relationship with them suffer. I want to tell God, This is not FAIR, God! It’s not TRUE!
My inner-pleaser is hurting, but I’m bringing it before God.
I have remembered past experiences when God taught me to trust Him with my reputation. He has walked me through many situations where I have been misunderstood or falsely accused. Each time my flesh reared up in self-defense, and then the Lord taught me that His vindication requires my surrender.
For this is commendable, if because of conscience toward God one endures grief, suffering wrongfully. For what credit is it if, when you are beaten for your faults, you take it patiently? But when you do good and suffer, if you take it patiently, this is commendable before God. –1 Peter 2:19-20
God sees. He knows.
It’s a comfort to hear Him say to my heart, “I see you.”
He goes further. He commends me if I handle it through faith in Him.
When you do good and suffer, if you take it patiently, this is commendable before God.
Jesus suffered in this way.
When He was reviled, He did not revile in return; when He suffered, He did not threaten. –-1 Peter 2:23
Jesus committed Himself to Him who judges righteously. –I Peter 2:23b
He trusted His heavenly Father to vindicate Him if and when the time was right. God is a just judge.
The Lord reminded me also of Psalm 37:5-7b today,
Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass, He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday. Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.
My circumstances are a raging spiritual battle, and they require that all of my body, soul, and spirit be engaged in the fight.
Fasting is key to breaking unseen strongholds and casting down arguments.
Friday will be a day of surrender through fasting and prayer to our God who longs to be gracious to you; therefore He will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him! (Isaiah 30:18).
What is God teaching you as you move forward in fasting on Fridays? Share your heart in the comments below so that we can grow together as a community. I am praying for all of you, too!